The plight of the soul in med school...

Well, med school is still hard. I'm currently on my neurology rotation which I like significantly less than psychiatry. This is because in neurology, everything makes sense to everyone except me. In psychiatry, nothing makes sense to anyone including me so at least I never felt like an idiot (knowing medications, clinical indications, DSM criteria, etc weren't so bad. Knowing the thousands of nerve pathways - that is bad.)

I think the pressure is hardest right now. The AOA awards went out and of course I wasn't even close to being qualified for one. Knowing that they did makes me feel kind of like a stupid loser. Also, match day was last Friday. Knowing that this time next year, I could be one of the kids who doesn't match (I hope not) is totally scaring. I am trying to stay motivated despite the heavy burnout to continue doing well on my new medications and psychotherapy. I am working on my CV and will be emailing to recommendations in the coming days, as well as hard-scheduling my Step 2 dates. I have a few books set aside, and with UWorld + my new study abilities, I don't think I will go wrong like I did in Step 1, and I will work just as hard.

I remember back in college, which were just more years wasted away on studying endlessly and never having fun, one of my friends told me I probably was going to med school because of familial pressure, and that I should have followed my dreams of becoming an English professor.

Shit. Shit. I think he was right. I just don't want to admit I've been lying to myself this whole time. Not when I've come this far up the mountain...

Good thing I have card tricks.

Some Upcoming Reviews...

...on magic things (I only review things that I really like, so all my reviews are positive):

Paul Carnazzo's "The Unfolding"
David Solomon's "The Wisdom of Solomon"
Devin Knight's "A Knight to Remember"

Food for thought....

In Strong Magic, Ortiz discusses the importance of scripting, and how it is far better to have a fully scripted set rather than going in without a script. He states that, paradoxically, you will sound a lot more natural and smoother when you go in knowing exactly what you're going to say, rather than trying to sound natural by "we'll do it live!" method. I fully agree with this, and I think it's worth thinking about especially if you, like me, used to be in the "fully impromptu script" school.